I've spent the last few days deep in reflection, thinking about the past year and the past decade. I do this every year. I spend hours thinking about what the year brought me:
- What were the wins? Big or small, what was good? What surprised and delighted me that I never could have planned for?
- What did I learn? Even in the most challenging situations, there's so much wisdom to gain.
- What am I leaving behind? What fears, shame, guilt, old patterns, stories, relationships, or limiting beliefs no longer serves me?
- What do I desire instead?
Then, I feel into the new year – what do I desire? How do I desire to feel? Who do I desire to be? What big audacious almost can't talk about them dreams and desires do I have?
I'm going to post more about desires and 2020 in a couple of days. For now, I want to share some of what I learned in 2019.
I don't know what 2019 was like for you, but for me, it was filled both with heartache and ecstatic joy.
I cried a lot over my fertility journey (no advice or sympathy please – I'm GOOD, but sharing to keep it real) and I laughed a lot with Josh, family and friends.
What a reminder that life is full of “both/and.” Both happy and sad at the same time. Darkness and light. Pain and purpose. It's not that we need to (or even can) strive for “only” joy, but that joy can be found and chosen no matter what.
What a reminder that you are not a victim. Everything – EVERY. THING. – happens for you.
When things felt so hard over the summer, I knew I needed something to shake me up and bring me back to joy so I celebrate that I went to Burning Man where I danced all night lit up in lights, walked and played naked with pride and confidence, burned old stories and pain that has weighed me down, and elevated my soul.
I rose up in such internal peace and joy and magic started to happen. A publisher called with a book deal out of nowhere. 10 new clients showed up to work on purpose, being a Goddess, self-love and reclaiming joy. A house I owned that was burying me and Josh financially sold. And so much more.
I learned that when a woman is in her pleasure and joy, she attracts all she desires.
I remembered that I CHOOSE – that I am in charge of my own happiness, no matter what the circumstances.
I remembered that my desires and heart knowing are never wrong – no matter what society or other people or my critical mind says.
And from the challenges this year, I learned to get help from experts. I remembered to surround myself with a village of support – Sisterhood, girlfriends, family, therapists, coaches, and community. I learned to never give up. Every time you think “That's impossible” – instead, ask “What IS possible?”
And the year was filled with wonder and joy too. I got to coach dozens of women to live their purpose and fall in love with themselves. From a client who got her dream job with a non-profit, to a client who started her Purpose business, to another who cleared pain from being abused as a child so that she can finally feel free and alive, I got to witness women live in their power.
I coached women through my EMPOWERED program to claim their worth, took women on Goddess Girls retreat to Miami and brought Goddesses “home” to Avalon, Glastonbury, England, the birthplace of Priestesses.
I spoke at amazing companies like Progressive Insurance and Richemont, Cartier's parent company. My team and I held the first Women's Happiness Summit with 30 experts for 3,300 women and women said it changed their lives! We held the second annual not-for-profit Women's Global Happiness Day with 75 events for thousands of women worldwide! The PurposeGirl Podcast reached #2 and #3 and #7 in self-help in many countries including Slovenia, Mexico and Macau!! (THANK YOU!!!)
I found out I'm going to be an aunt again! I got to spend both of my parents' 75th birthdays with them, took yummy mini vacations with Josh and different girlfriends, and had lots of game nights with our close friends.
So even if you feel like you've had a hard year, I guarantee there are wins to celebrate and wisdom to learn. When you do this exercise of celebrating the good, you allow yourself to remember all of the delicious moments. Otherwise, you miss all the good.
I also realize old patterns I am READY to leave behind. GOODBYE:
- Thinking I need to “control” everything with my mind when the flow of positivity and joy will elevate your dreams beyond what your mind can conceive!
- Self-doubt – thinking others know better, are better or do better than me. We're each on our own glorious journey and I don't want to trade mine with anyone!
- Letting fear stop me from being BIG and BOLD with my mission and wisdom so I can empower you to be the same!
As I reflected on the year, I thought of YOU – my PurposeGirls. My readers, students, clients, friends, Goddesses and community who are on this brave purpose journey with me. I thought of how you're each a Goddess on Purpose, here to live your fullest, most alive, most joyful, most fulfilling, and impactful life. I'm immensely grateful for you being on this courageous path with me.
So what about you? What are your wins of 2019? What did you learn? What are you leaving behind? And what do you desire for next year?
THANK YOU for being on this path with me. Thank you for trusting me and learning with me. I hope you have a fabulous new year, filled with purpose, joy, pleasure, abundance, fun, peace, good health, fulfillment and more.