Greetings from Jerusalem! I have been filled with so many emotions here – gratitude, joy, sadness, faith.
Yesterday, I stood at the “Holy of Holies” – the spot where it is believed that Abraham nearly scarified his son, Isaac. As I came close, my veins vibrated and my heart shook. I was meant to be here. Women were gathered, swaying and praying and crying together and tears streamed down my face as I gave over my sacrifice to a higher power.
This trip to Israel was planned long before my miscarriage, but the timing is not lost on me. I know I am being sent on a spiritual journey. The lessons are unfolding and I want more. More clarity, more calling. I know that I need to remain open and clear to hear the message. I am ready to receive. Ready with love.
This is not the first spiritual journey I've taken. Eight years ago, I was in the worst rut of my life. I knew I was put on earth for a great purpose but I couldn't figure out how to pursue it. The idea that someone could make money empowering other people seemed so far-fetched, so unrealistic, so crazy, that I convinced myself it would never happen. I fell into such a deep depression that I begged a psychiatrist for heavy duty psychotic meds. She refused but instead forced me to ask myself, “Carin, what do you want? What do you really, really, really, really want??” The answer came immediately: Freedom. I want to SOAR.
I had been living in a self-created jail cell. I hadn't allowed myself to follow the dreams of my heart because I had deemed them impractical, irresponsible, too expensive, or just plain stupid. Traveling was something I had denied myself. I yearned to be free but I didn't allow myself to GO.
And so, in that depression, I booked myself a trip to Paris for a month. I didn't know how I would get time off of work, or what I would do there, but I knew I needed something RADICAL to cut the old crap, get me out of my rut, and launch me into my joy. As I sailed the Seine River on my last night there, my heart soared – I had turned a dream into reality! I was FREE!!
What do you really really, really want?
What do you need to move forward?
What are you being called to learn?
And what will you do to ignite your path forward?
On this spiritual journey in Israel, I need faith. Faith that everything will work out, faith that there is a greater plan, faith that all that is happening is in my highest and greatest good.
Every time I travel, I get the jolt of soul expansion that I need. On Monday, we saw several bar mitzvah boys dancing and singing with their families, and they re-igntied hope for me. Then last night, we had a strolling dinner through the “Shook” (market) and the smells of hot pita, the sight of fresh dates and figs, and the sounds of beautiful Hebrew reminded me that I have always had all I need. It reminded me to have faith.
I'm telling you, travel gives you what you need in a way that the same ol' same ol' daily grind can never do!
Time and again, travel has created that path for me. Research shows that because travel gives your brain the novelty it seeks, travel is filled with anticipation, and travel creates memories you can savor, it expands your well being. That's why I've started taking clients traveling with me. Recently, I took a client who was nursing a broken heart on a retreat to the city of New Hope. In January, I took 15 women in their 40's to Miami Beach to claim that they are fabulous. And now in August, I am taking clients to Paris to IGNITE YOUR SOUL. If you are seeking freedom, if you crave spirited adventure, and if you are ready to claim your great joy, join us. (Click here for info!)
And either way – whether you come with me to Paris, or you schedule your own retreat in some place you've been dying to go, allow travel to boost you forward. That is my commitment to myself this week. I have a lot to learn. A lot to grow. And I am open to receiving all that I need. So allow yourself to get what you need and go, my love. Go.
Shalom my friend,
ps – If you are interested in Purpose in Paris, I hope you will join us. I am going to support you in brilliant, explosive soul-igniting self-love! On Purpose in Paris, we're going to meditate every day in a different Parisien garden, pop champagne as the Eiffel tower lights up at night and dance to our own brilliance, paint atop Montemartre as Renoir did, and you're going to explore your beautiful essence in the Louvre. This journey will LIGHT YOU UP and I can't wait! Click here for information and/or to join us in Paris!