I spent this weekend getting wild in the woods – getting naked, figuratively and literally – and I am forever changed.
On my 42nd birthday, I emailed you that this would be a big year for me, though I did not know how. In the days that followed, I became confused and lost about who I am. I questioned everything – my marriage, my home, my work. Nothing seemed “right.”
I began deep work into who I am. I cleansed my body of all toxins – gluten, dairy, sugar, caffeine – I meditated and journaled and cried to friends. The message that kept rising in my soul was this:
You are a Wild Woman.
At the surface, I didn't know what it meant, but I saw myself dancing naked in the woods with other women. Perhaps a past life remembrance – or a future vision.
So I signed up for a “Wild Woman Sisterhood” retreat.
Oh my, the ability to freely dance, to let loose, to let go is the most empowering experience possible.
In a world with so many rules, so many expectations, so many responsibilities, we forget who we are. We lose who we are. We hide who we are in order to fit in and be loved. And then we end up depressed.
Someone somewhere said you weren't good enough to be a writer, thin enough to be loved, you shouldn't run naked, you needed to be a good girl, to be polite, to not brag or get angry. Me too. It kept us safe as children – in our homes, our churches, at school. But in that hiding, we abandoned our Selves.
So you gave up the dream of being an artist, you pretended not to be sensual, you did what you were supposed to do. And then we wake up at 30, 40, 50, and wonder why we aren't happy?!
My love, inside of you is a Wild Woman (or man). You were born to be creative, expressive, sensual, sexual, a lioness protecting her cubs, a priestess sharing her wisdom, a compassionate lover, a dancer and an artist. That is the divine, strong, powerful feminine.
I gave up my true nature as a child. I've hidden this part of me for nearly 40 years. No more, Sister. No more. This weekend I reclaimed my true self and I feel born again. Whole. Complete. Lioness. Goddess. Mother. Healer. Woman. I am forever grateful to all of my Wild Woman Sisterhood Sisters. This is only the beginning.
I taped this video for you to remember YOUR Wild Woman. Enjoy!
I'm now off to lead my Soul Spark in Sonoma Retreat where 9 beautiful women will join me to awaken their souls. You must join us sometime!
With so much love,