Who do you trust? Completely and totally trust with your heart and soul's desires? A dear friend? A partner? Yourself?
All week, I've been sitting with these questions. In my Divine Feminine Priestess training, I've realized how much I've hidden behind walls to protect my sweet little heart. I probably created them when I was a little girl living in a very loud household with dominating men. The walls then grew taller when I was abused in high school by my girlfriend, and then the walls empowered me to be bullishly strong in corporate business.
But, today, the walls don't help me. Now they just keep me from the deep soulful connections I desire. Today, the walls let me hide, disconnect, and they make me try to control others. But after a hard day of two people I love being admitted to the hospital, I'm remembering… I can't control anything outside of me. I can only open my heart to love – and trust that I can cope with disappointment.
What about you, what trust are you desiring? How are you getting in your way?
Trusting others begins with trusting yourself. I distrusted myself because I fell in love with someone who abused me, and then I further distrusted myself because I married someone whom I later divorced. Two whammies – goodbye trust! But then I kept thinking… that is also the heart that left my corporate 6 figure salary and VP title to follow my dreams as a Positive Psychology empowerment coach. That is also the heart that opened to love again with Josh, and that loves clients, women worldwide, and has become vulnerable. My heart deserves trust.
And so does yours.
Trust begins with trusting yourself. The more you trust yourself, the less you need walls because you will listen when your heart tells you whom to befriend and whom to let go of. The more you trust yourself, the less you will need to control others because you will trust that you will be okay no matter what. Here are four tips to trust:
1. Whatever old issues of distrust you're hanging on to, release them, knowing you were doing the best you could at the time. Have love and compassion for yourself, release, and forgive yourself.
2. Think of something you now LOVE and adore (an activity, a TV show, a book, a project). Feel what your heart physically feels like. (Likely, it's open, soft, light – remember that).
3. Now think of something you DESPISE, resent, think you “should” do but dislike. Feel what your heart physically feels like (Dark, heavy, closed – remember that. My client last week said it was like a rotten apple!)
4. Use this heart test when making decisions, considering options, and opening up to others.
It's called “heart-knowing”. Your heart was the first organ to develop and it always knows. Trust it. Trust yourself.
With so much love,
PS – BIG announcement coming this week – I'm SOOO excited!!! Stay tuned!!!